Chapter 23: If this how it feels

If this how it feels
I don't want to be like this

If this how it feels
I don't want to be like this

If this how it feels
I don't want to be like this

If this how it feels
Then I have to stop this!!!!!

Chapter 23: .....

Hei you..
What are you doing right now?
Do you ever have me in your mind?
Even just a flash?

Don't you know?
Your presence is the sharpest knife
I want to hold you
But I can't
Teared my heart into pieces...

Ik denk dat dit is niet zomaar een gevoel
Let's just see what will happen next..
Always hoping that it will be some positive things..

Chapter 23: I am not brave

I wish I had the brave
Waking up I want to see your face
Sleep at night I want to see your smile
You are the angel coming through my heart
Blew me away to the seventh heaven

I wish I had the brave
Your eyes are my sunrise
Your smile is my rainbow
You are my perfect sky
You are my hero

I wish I had the brave
All i want just to give you calls
Saying how are you
All i want just to hug you tight
Saying I love you
All i want just to kiss your lip
And hearing you to say I do

I wish I had the brave
Now I really don't know what to do
I've never decided to become a secret admirer
Move on? Or standing still?
Reach the sky? Or see it from distance?

I wish I had the brave..

Chapter 22: Asa

Mata terpadu
Membuatnya tersipu
Bunga musim semi bermekaran
Seiring terangnya kalbu

Mungkin dia hanya hidup dalam angan
Dimana semua hanya abu-abu
Praduga menari-nari
Terkadang memecahkan gelas
Menyakiti hati
Air mata luruh berlari

Entah kenapa
Angin tidak senyaman yang dinanti
Seakan mereka menghalangi
Negeri dongeng yang ada didalam mimpi

Ombak berdebar kencang
Begitu juga genderang perang
Semua takdir ataukah mimpi?
Jalani...
Tirai kan tersibak..menguak kebenaran Illahi..

-DeltaSync Office, 02/04/2010; 14:57-

Chapter 21: What a Night

Gelapnya mendung membuatku ingin bebas seperti burung
Tinggi mengangkasa tanpa ada praduga
Inginku berlari
Padang luas yang kunanti
hanya ada aku, dia dan mimpiku..

Andai aku bisa
Lepaskan semua jangkar pembelenggu
Berat, enggan kumelihat
Pandangan mataku pun memekat

Kadang
Sebercak tinta hitam dapat membutakan mata mereka
Tertutuplah istana istana yang ada didepan mata
Kecewa,, kita hanya dapat kecewa,,

Mata yang terbuka..
Niat egois duduk manis bersila..
Mengajakku bercanda, cengkrama,, berkata semua akan baik-baik saja..
Tapi apakah aku bisa? Kemana aku harus bertanya?
Apakah memang ini jalannya?

Ternyata,
Ini bukan impian dan asa..
Lariku dari hadapnya
Terus berlari
Menuju puncak cahaya yang menari..

-Delft, 30 March 2010; 23:54-

Chapter 20: .....

Deer Daiyeri,

I'm tired to tell the loneliness
I'm tired to tell emptiness
I want to feel the pain, and struggle isn't the pain
Pain of the separation
Even you'll meet them again tomorrow
Pain of the betrayal
Even it's just they can't be there when you need them to

Should I change it a little bit?
Becoming more aggressive?

I knew
They wouldn't show it
If I didn't get the signal
And here I am
Standing, waiting, wondering and writing..
Of my painting of love that don't even know when it will coming true..
I was just so scared
I am trapped..

-Delft, 21/03/2010 ; 00:14-

Chapter 19 : The calling

Deer Daiyeri,

I can't stand the call anymore
He's been calling at me
He said that this is not the right way
He said I wasn't born to do this
Was it true?

What I should do?
Should I join with hopeless club?
Which they think they rich, they don't
I want to join with the happiness
Eventhough when they aren't rich, they are

Hope this will go the right way

Delft, 20-03-2010 : 23:58