Chapter 5 : Dare to be different

It's been a few weeks since i was thinking about my hair already needed to have some cut. The arabic gen in my blood sometimes causing some grooming difficulties, the fast growth of my hair.

I am very jealous with my javanese friends in here. It's already 3 months, and they still don't need to cut their hair. It's still short, yet i already cut it twice. Why am i very concern about this?? because cutting your hair here, means that you must ready to spend 10-15 euro for each cut. It's about 150.000-250.000 rupiah and that's a huge amount of money.. T.T

Ok then, this day.. I was deciding to cut my hair in Turkish Barbershop. My friend, Andy, already tried that place, and he said it was 'okay', and it also the cheapest one in town, 10 euro for once. 

Actually, I had this negative feeling, i was afraid that the cut won't be nice. I was afraid that they couldn't speak english and they will be misunderstood with what i want for my hair. 

And it's really happened!!

Gosh...

At the first time i was seeing my hair done, i felt that my charm and my youth was already dissapear by the hand of a barber. It's looks very weird!!! 

I was saying on the first time that "on the side part of my head, i need it to be more shorter than the upper part" and i also said "please cut all of it, but not too short please".. And i'm right, they were misunderstood and created hell for me..

They made the side part very very very short, like the military boys.. And the upper part, still long.. Gosh, I wanted to scream, but i prefer to stay cool or they will think that all of Indonesians will scream if they get a bad haircut.. ^_^

So, i just want him to fix some part of it, to lower the autism look.. And i went home with my heart breaking into pieces.. My gorgeous hair, already dissapeared..

While riding my bike, i was thinking that... Actually, my haircut wasn't that bad.. The barber created some almost-mohawk style on the top of my head, but i just don't get used to it.. 

I was out from my comfort zone.. I had a new-style of haircut!! Totally new.. with some gel or hair foam, i will look more younger and naughty than my usual appearance...

Then i decided,okay.. WHY NOT?? Why i must afraid to be different? I was just adding some story in my book of life.. I can tell my kids in the future, that your father ever had some different style on his head.. PAPA IS DARE TO BE DIFFERENT!! -even it's because of some accident.. not my real intention-

So, i am having a new hairstyle now.. totally different from my former style which i've been using it since 21 years ago.. :)

And i'm ready for it.. The insult, praise, everything... 

In the future, i will also want to be more innovative and trying something new for myself.. because life will be very priceless, if you don't want to create an unique and strong story for it.. Life is short, just draw your best and unique experience.. and when you're old, you will have the biggest smile ever when you look into your past..

HAPPY EXPERIMENTING!!!

-with still obeying the limit of your norm-

Chapter 4 : ...

Tonight..

My heart just likes the dried mapple..

You can save it as a beautiful bookmark..

Nor you can take it, and easily crushed it..

No one ever hose it..

With love, cares and joy..

Maybe this is the one they always avoided..

Likes living and die at the same time..

Get lost in the crowd of peoples..

This is it..

This is Lonelyness..

God, i know..

You created beginning, and then you created the end..

You created togetherness, and also separation..

You are the greatest writer in the universe.. I know it

But, 

You took half of my sunshines..

When I walk this path alone.. 

Fighting for my war, with all of my weapons..

You created a wild jungle...

A lot of tigers hiding behind the bushes waiting for me to be his dinner..

The snakes were hanging on the trees, seeing me with his starving eyes..

I cried and bleeded a lot of times.. Eat or be eaten..

Yet all of us goes to the same direction..

To survive..

Therefore, 

I need them..

For this moment..

I need them to take care of my wounds..

I need their warmth for brightening my heart..

I need their listening to share my experiences..

I need their wisdom to be my strength..

and I need their bright eyes, wonderful smiles, flawless skins, beautiful hairs to be my most beautiful scenery on the earth..

If i were a wind, i will blew myself away to go to their hugs..

If i were a birds, i will fly to their kisses..

And if i were a sun, i will always smiles.. because i can see them everyday from the top of the sky, eventhough i can not touch them..

I miss them so..

I really do..

Love and hugs for my family and my bestfriends..

All of this things were just for you..

Kisses and hugs,

M.Y.A.

Chapter 3 : Inspiration

It's amazing how God been creates this complex chains of life for us.. He can made us laugh and cry at the same time, He can give you punishment and present at the same moment.. Here, i want to talk about how He can give so much inspiration in different ways.. From seeing a child playing in the street, Walking in the side of the Ijssel river or maybe with meeting someone new in some social multi-cultural event..

Yesterday, i met this young boy.. His name is Iqbal Adiansyah.. He's still 17, and been staying here for almost 2 month.. He's Libra (which exactly the same as mine)..

Honestly, i believe in Zodiac.. I believe when you were born will determine your character and your perception in life.. As far as i know, Libra peoples can come out in two kind of form.. As a loyal follower or as a wise leader.. 

And he was a Chairman of OSIS in his highschool.. Okay, that's usual.. He's been in Jordania for almost 2 months with paying 35 million rupiahs.. Ok, nothing special about that.. 

What special about him is like seeing the version of "i-should-be-like-that-when-i-was-17".. I was wasting my time with playing games and socializing.. I was just sitting or sleeping in my room with eating a lot of things, as result i reached 75 kilos which that quite unimpressive..

We have almost same character, the differences is how we explore that in our personality.. His father is like a great guidance for him with giving a lot of wise advice to improve himself.. The strength point of a first child.. And me? i was just watching TV in my family room with hearing stories about how great my father is... How incredible was his journey to establish his own company.. How great was his strategy to achieve his success.. And at that time, i wasn't care that much.. As long as i am happy, i will do whatever i want to do.. because my family has everything, i just ask some money.. and POOF!!

Later, when i was in college.. My college friends were the one who slap me in the face, stab me in the back, drag me to my sorrowness and thanks a lot to them.. Because they made me realize for who i am.. I stood up, and said to the world.. Don't u ever took me as a loser!! i will show you who i am!! And i just walk by myself, improve myself, bleeding, stood up again, bleeding, and it still goes like that until now.. My father never told me where is the way i should go.. He rarely told me about how we should live our lives to the fullest.. I just always walked behind him, and analyzing about how to achieve all of that.. Sometimes it can be the strength point, but sometimes it takes a lot of times.. 

dude, enough for talking about someone strength and great destiny.. What can i learned today is there is "TIDAK ADA KATA TERLAMBAT UNTUK MENINGKATKAN KUALITAS DIRI".. we have all of the time and the opportunities in this world, the question is.. Will you take it? will you make it very useful? Will you give your best to absorb all of it?? I think i haven't do that.. 

Here, perversion happening to me.. When i should work harder, give it my best that i can do.. I didn't do that.. all of the facilities like the sweetest thing in this world, and you can not deny it.. My heart and intention still weak!! I haven't give it my best yet!! and I SHOULD GIVE THAT FROM NOW!!! GANBATTE KUDASAIII!!!

Special thanks to Iqbal

Chapter 2 : My lifeline-should-be-in-next-1-year

1. Berhasil mengemban amanah sebagai ketua PPI Deventer, dengan membawa eksistensi PPI Deventer kearah yg lebih baik.. Amien

2. TA dan IPK dapet bagus!!!

3. Ikut minimal 2 lomba desain dan menyelesaikan desain rumah mas ucik..

4. Jalan2 keluar negeri minimal 3 negara.. ^_^

5. Kerja di perusahaan konsultan internasional.. amien.. :)

6. Memperkuat iman dan taqwa pada Allah SWT

7. Berpegang teguh pada prinsip untuk tidak minum, one night stand/just for fun, dan obat2an terlarang

8. Have a new soulmate that will last for a long long time.. 

9. to be continued..

Chapter 1 : Introduction

Actually this is my second times having blog. i already have one, but i'm a bad father for the my first child. I didn't take care of it, and i even forgot his name.. 

Well, I'm a bad writer, but im always excited to improve myself and learning new things. So please give me some comment so i can improve my writing skill in the future. Who knows that i could be the next male version of J.K. Rowling? or maybe the modern version of J.R.R. Tolkien? Only God knows... ^_^

Maybe on the next chapter and so on, you will read a lot of stuff about me or other subject that im interested in.. Yet i hope it can give you a lot of new information or otherwise u will think that my life is so boring.. 

So,

Take your best chair, relax, and..

Welcome to my blog!!