Chapter 4 : ...

Tonight..

My heart just likes the dried mapple..

You can save it as a beautiful bookmark..

Nor you can take it, and easily crushed it..

No one ever hose it..

With love, cares and joy..

Maybe this is the one they always avoided..

Likes living and die at the same time..

Get lost in the crowd of peoples..

This is it..

This is Lonelyness..

God, i know..

You created beginning, and then you created the end..

You created togetherness, and also separation..

You are the greatest writer in the universe.. I know it

But, 

You took half of my sunshines..

When I walk this path alone.. 

Fighting for my war, with all of my weapons..

You created a wild jungle...

A lot of tigers hiding behind the bushes waiting for me to be his dinner..

The snakes were hanging on the trees, seeing me with his starving eyes..

I cried and bleeded a lot of times.. Eat or be eaten..

Yet all of us goes to the same direction..

To survive..

Therefore, 

I need them..

For this moment..

I need them to take care of my wounds..

I need their warmth for brightening my heart..

I need their listening to share my experiences..

I need their wisdom to be my strength..

and I need their bright eyes, wonderful smiles, flawless skins, beautiful hairs to be my most beautiful scenery on the earth..

If i were a wind, i will blew myself away to go to their hugs..

If i were a birds, i will fly to their kisses..

And if i were a sun, i will always smiles.. because i can see them everyday from the top of the sky, eventhough i can not touch them..

I miss them so..

I really do..

Love and hugs for my family and my bestfriends..

All of this things were just for you..

Kisses and hugs,

M.Y.A.