Sunday, November 22, 2009

Chapter 4 : ...

Tonight..
My heart just likes the dried mapple..
You can save it as a beautiful bookmark..
Nor you can take it, and easily crushed it..

No one ever hose it..
With love, cares and joy..
Maybe this is the one they always avoided..
Likes living and die at the same time..
Get lost in the crowd of peoples..
This is it..
This is Lonelyness..

God, i know..
You created beginning, and then you created the end..
You created togetherness, and also separation..
You are the greatest writer in the universe.. I know it

But, 
You took half of my sunshines..
When I walk this path alone.. 
Fighting for my war, with all of my weapons..
You created a wild jungle...
A lot of tigers hiding behind the bushes waiting for me to be his dinner..
The snakes were hanging on the trees, seeing me with his starving eyes..
I cried and bleeded a lot of times.. Eat or be eaten..
Yet all of us goes to the same direction..
To survive..

Therefore, 
I need them..
For this moment..
I need them to take care of my wounds..
I need their warmth for brightening my heart..
I need their listening to share my experiences..
I need their wisdom to be my strength..
and I need their bright eyes, wonderful smiles, flawless skins, beautiful hairs to be my most beautiful scenery on the earth..

If i were a wind, i will blew myself away to go to their hugs..
If i were a birds, i will fly to their kisses..
And if i were a sun, i will always smiles.. because i can see them everyday from the top of the sky, eventhough i can not touch them..

I miss them so..
I really do..
Love and hugs for my family and my bestfriends..
All of this things were just for you..

Kisses and hugs,
M.Y.A.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Chapter 3 : Inspiration

It's amazing how God been creates this complex chains of life for us.. He can made us laugh and cry at the same time, He can give you punishment and present at the same moment.. Here, i want to talk about how He can give so much inspiration in different ways.. From seeing a child playing in the street, Walking in the side of the Ijssel river or maybe with meeting someone new in some social multi-cultural event..

Yesterday, i met this young boy.. His name is Iqbal Adiansyah.. He's still 17, and been staying here for almost 2 month.. He's Libra (which exactly the same as mine)..
Honestly, i believe in Zodiac.. I believe when you were born will determine your character and your perception in life.. As far as i know, Libra peoples can come out in two kind of form.. As a loyal follower or as a wise leader.. 
And he was a Chairman of OSIS in his highschool.. Okay, that's usual.. He's been in Jordania for almost 2 months with paying 35 million rupiahs.. Ok, nothing special about that.. 
What special about him is like seeing the version of "i-should-be-like-that-when-i-was-17".. I was wasting my time with playing games and socializing.. I was just sitting or sleeping in my room with eating a lot of things, as result i reached 75 kilos which that quite unimpressive..
We have almost same character, the differences is how we explore that in our personality.. His father is like a great guidance for him with giving a lot of wise advice to improve himself.. The strength point of a first child.. And me? i was just watching TV in my family room with hearing stories about how great my father is... How incredible was his journey to establish his own company.. How great was his strategy to achieve his success.. And at that time, i wasn't care that much.. As long as i am happy, i will do whatever i want to do.. because my family has everything, i just ask some money.. and POOF!!

Later, when i was in college.. My college friends were the one who slap me in the face, stab me in the back, drag me to my sorrowness and thanks a lot to them.. Because they made me realize for who i am.. I stood up, and said to the world.. Don't u ever took me as a loser!! i will show you who i am!! And i just walk by myself, improve myself, bleeding, stood up again, bleeding, and it still goes like that until now.. My father never told me where is the way i should go.. He rarely told me about how we should live our lives to the fullest.. I just always walked behind him, and analyzing about how to achieve all of that.. Sometimes it can be the strength point, but sometimes it takes a lot of times.. 

dude, enough for talking about someone strength and great destiny.. What can i learned today is there is "TIDAK ADA KATA TERLAMBAT UNTUK MENINGKATKAN KUALITAS DIRI".. we have all of the time and the opportunities in this world, the question is.. Will you take it? will you make it very useful? Will you give your best to absorb all of it?? I think i haven't do that.. 

Here, perversion happening to me.. When i should work harder, give it my best that i can do.. I didn't do that.. all of the facilities like the sweetest thing in this world, and you can not deny it.. My heart and intention still weak!! I haven't give it my best yet!! and I SHOULD GIVE THAT FROM NOW!!! GANBATTE KUDASAIII!!!

Special thanks to Iqbal